I don't know what it feels like to feel pregnant, but we are still awaiting our pregnancy test and a week out from our transfer, and I don't feel any different. At first I felt bloated and crampy, but now it is just back to normal. Don't get me wrong....my ovaries are still hurting, but other than that, well, I am "normal." I know it is all in God's will and His timing and I don't need to be anxious about this. Alan says I over analyze things....it's hard being in my position and not analyzing.
In this process, you become UBER aware of every normal and abnormal feeling of your body. You can feel every organ, every cramp, every weird thing. Being in medicine and knowing a lot about anatomy and processes too, makes it even harder to ignore symptoms. So you analyze. Is that cramping from my ovaries hyperstimulating? uterus contracting? implantation taking place? losing embryos? But the thing is, you can't let these thoughts overpower you.
It has been a hard week this week. Alan and my parents have been on me like crazy to be calm, not stress, and relax, relax, relax. With work, the relaxation point is out. There have been some other situations, as well, that have caused some excess stress on my body. We have just been praying that these haven't effected implantation. And my emotions are crazy, so of course being calm isn't the easiest emotion! We are praying fervently.
They tell you after the transplant that you may spot which is normal during implantation.....I haven't had that.....they said it doesn't always happen, but it scares me it hasn't. My hormone levels drastically dropped between my first and second hormone check since my transplant and that scares me. The thing is, I have to have faith. God knows what is happening. God has a plan. And me worrying and over-analyzing isn't getting me anywhere but more stress and not relying on my Savior.
So, we continue to wait for the pregnancy test.....just a little while longer and we will know. Praying for His will and name to be praised!
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